Monthly Archives: May 2014

Please note

The Chronologies being published are being moved from the main blog to ‘pages’ on the sidebar or below the blog, to allow the main blog to continue to be regenerated.

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/p/blog-page_19.html#.U3p8JdJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/p/hgs-late-teens-and-early-adulthood.html#.U3p729JdXJk

And a thought, this chronology takes you up to age19, if I had been intending to be a troublemaker, that would have been established by then. I was a very lost confused person, not a troublemaker and not dishonest, I was trying to make my way in the world.

Essential Reading 3 vital 2nd link

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world/europe/jersey/

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/you-are-not-going-to-like-me-posting.html#.U3kibtJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/apparently-dame-heather-steel-is.html#.U3ki_dJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/this-was-my-complaint-against-diocese.html#.U3kf0tJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/open-letter-to-jersey-deanery.html#.U3kgMtJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/dame-heather-steel-extract-from-bobs.html#.U3khd9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/musings.html#.U3kiEdJdXJk

New re-post  http://thinkingoutlouddotme1.wordpress.com/2014/05/09/korris-report-jersey-child-abuse-and-the-church-hgs-story/

non-essential but helpful reading 3

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/choose-between-college-and-fighting.html#.U3kgWdJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/good-morning.html#.U3s1mNJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/good-afternoon.html#.U3s2UtJdXJk

How to make yourselves look good through abuse victims -for the church of england

After your spectacular failure to impress anyone, especially church abuse victims in your recent use of us in the press, I have a suggestion, which would be well within the very skewed ethics of the church of england.

Why don’t you create and groom an ‘abuse victim’ to sing your praises and harp on about how the church of england has looked after them so well since the abuse and they forgive the church and all is puppies and flowers.
You will never get a real victim to do that, as you treat abuse victims appallingly even while doing your show for the press. So pay someone to do it, that would be well within the church of england’s ethics, it would not sit on your consciences or be wrong in your eyes, after all, you can say your lines on Sunday and God forgives you.

Wednesday, 16 October 2013

I wonder if Jane Fisher realised in 2008 as she blatantly covered up at my expense and traumatized me, that in the end this would not stay covered up, not with all her efforts to use the Korris report and press as a ‘wonderful boast’ rather than an exposure of wrongdoing including her own.
The wonderful boast went wrong in my opinion, no one looks at the tiny articles on the diocesan website that boast at my expense and try to make diocesan safeguarding great when it isn’t, and no-one believes that what has been done is great, it is a massive shambles.

Old posts, helpful but non-essential reading 2

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/the-anniversary-of-jane-fishers.html#.U3kXIdJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/the-great-anniversary-of-my-death-at.html#.U3kXvNJdXJk

11/10/2013
The Church of England’s investigations, which miss the point, don’t investigate my side of things or my complaints, are on a course to seriously harm me once again, thus I am launching OUR INVESTIGATION:

This consists of me answering questions from any blog readers, any reasonable questions, you can send them via email or via the comment form.
I am not bothered if Jonny the troll sends any, I will have a good laugh 🙂

the email address is: iamtherealhg@gmail.com

***

I have been asked what I want.

That is a good question, especially as I have flu and my energy has run out, but I will make a start.
I am interested to see the jump in the blog stats this evening too.

Well I can’t really have what I want, my life and good character and everything that was ripped from me restored. Which is what I would want.
So what else could I want?

First and foremost to see Jane Fisher removed from working with vulnerable people and disciplined.

For my side to be heard.

For Dame Heather Steel to be removed and for her friend Philip Bailhache to lose his dictatorship so that there can be justice in Jersey in the real sense of the word, especially for abuse survivors.

For people to be made accountable for their wrongs, which is not the same thing as the Diocese of Winchester scapegoating them for publicity or letting them off because of pressure to do so.

I think that is enough for tonight, I am suffering badly with flu deep deep trauma on the anniversary of my death at the hands of the diocese of winchester.

Legal Abuse

This was posted by a reader of one of the Jersey blogs in response, it is very interesting.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Legal_abuse

Essential reading 2

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/please-allow-me-to-continue-telling-you.html

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/written-long-time-ago-as-i-prepared-to.html#.U3kZ49JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jersey-police.html#.U3kcQ9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/an-open-letter-to-jane-fisher-micheal.html#.U3kX9NJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/for-jane-fisher.html#.U3ka0dJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/dame-heather-steel.html#.U3kbvtJdXJk

I offer you the blogs being written by the kind Jersey bloggers:

It is particulalry shocking how the wealthy and powerful have forgotten Jesus in their worship of power and use of the church for it.

http://ricosorda.blogspot.co.uk/

http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.co.uk/

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/

And back to my blog:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/korris-korrections-kontinued.html#.U3kdHNJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/memories-of-being-homeless-after-jane.html#.U3kcvNJdXJk

Statement to BBC Jersey 11/10/2013

On the Anniversary of my return from Jersey to Winchester I have a statement for BBC Jersey.
I have been profoundly damaged by the way the Diocese of Winchester have acted since March, the Korris report omitted my views and my complaint against Safeguarding Director Jane Fisher, the Diocese of Winchester have shown no care or concern for me whatsoever and have been unpleasant to the point of threatening me when I begged them not to intervene in my life as they did previously on my return from Winchester to Jersey.
I do not agree with the way the Diocese of Winchester have handled this and I think they way they left me to be harmed by the smear campaign run by the Deanery of Jersey, and tried to tell me it was not happening was appalling.
I do not see the Diocese of Winchester’s aim in all this, they seem directionless and if my welfare in all of this has been irrelevant to them, then I am not sure how they can claim that it is about the welfare of vulnerable people.
I have protested and so has Bob Hill, and so have many other people, that Dame Heather Steel is conflicted and thus she should not be involved in the enquiry, so I would like to state on the BBC that Dame Steel’s enquiry is not to do with my complaint as far as I am concerned, and is not valid, and she has been asked to withdraw, thus whatever she publishes is not relevant to my complaint.
My complaint is about Jane Fisher and the Bishop and Diocese of Winchester and their handling of this, but at present, the Church of England are continuing to refuse to investigate my complaint.
HG

Bringing posts from last year to the top of the blog non-essential but helpful reading 1.

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/bobs-blogs-re-traumatise-me-even-though.html#.U3kUFNJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/ready-to-continue.html#.U3kODNJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/good-morning-well-yesterday-evening-i.html#.U3kQf9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/church-real-church-not-church-of-england.html#.U3kRk9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/lets-talk-about-flu.html#.U3kVL9JdXJk

05/10/2013
Well, angry rumblings are certainly coming from the church and the police.
Since I am not reading the angry rumblings, but am surprisingly getting emails from all quarters, I will take a guess.
Dame Steel, colleague and friend of Bailhache, Falle and others in Jersey’s magic circle/political clique, is about to launch her attack on me and clear the wrongdoers.
Why bother, Steel, what is the point of this to me? It is in the past for me.

Saturday, 5 October 2013

yesses and no’s

  • no, the police, the church of england and anyone connected with them are not to contact me.
  • yes I will go mad every time they do.
  • no, there is no genuine inquiry into my complaints
  • yes the diocese and their ‘enquiries’ are a lie.
In the end of my days in Winchester before I was driven out by Jane Fisher, I phoned the diocese many times and asked for Jane Fisher to be withdrawn from my life.
This was used against me by Jane Fisher and claimed to be harrassment.
How ridiculous is it that she was able to go on and on harming me behind my back and without my permission and yet she got me done for protesting.
And yet, the police treated me as mad and refused my complaint against her!
This is how this whole thing has been. One-sided, I have been treated as mad and bad and branded, while Fisher remains free to destroy vulnerable people.
06/10/2013
As long as the Diocese of Winchester and the Church of England keep jane Fisher working with vulnerable adults after the way she has destroyed me and exonorated herself, they are making it clear, stating it, that they do not care about safeguarding.
I don’t need to add to that. that is a statement.

Monday, 7 October 2013

The stats on the blog are rocketing skywards this morning, but please remember this is only the beginning of a blog that covers 13+ years of hell at the hands of the Diocese of Winchester, culiminating in their fireworks display of an attack on my life and character this year. Stay tuned.
here’s one way of looking at it, the Diocese of Winchester launched on me aggressively, violated my life and humiliated me, they obviously want a fight, and until they are forcibly withdrawn, I will oblige.

10/10/2013
Day four of the flu with a very full weekend coming up, lets hope that Steel and the Diocese do not callously launch their ‘report’ now.

Thursday, 10 October 2013

‘You do not matter’ is the message loud and clear, from the Church of England, ‘You are not relevant, neither are your experiences or feelings or rights, because you are poor, disabled, from a disadvantaged background, you do not matter to us and we not will not protect you from abuse, but we will protect abusers and put their welfare first, as long as they are rich, from a ‘good background’ and ‘fit in’, which you do not’.

Thus speaks the Great Grim Church

Essential reading/old posts 1.

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/in-march-this-year-my-world-was.html#.U3kJY9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/traumas-from-last-six-months-exhaustive.html#.U3kJy9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/what-did-korris-report-miss-out-or.html#.U3kJ79JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/the-silence-from-investigationwhat.html#.U3kPU9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/email-to-hampshire-constabulary-cc.html#.U3kSF9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/bob-hills-heather-steel-blog.html#.U3kThdJdXJk

Written 01/10/2013 on this blog:

My last words before I go out to my evening classes and then to struggle with another night on the streets, battling depression and despair and the oppression of Dame Steel’s conflicted enquiry, which is due to be published to damn me and prevent me from returning to Jersey in 10 days time.

Bishop Tim Dakin made his attitude to me clear by threatening me, refusing to communicate through my mediator and allowing the conflicted enquiry to continue.

His only way out of this mess and avoiding my complaint, which is not against Jersey but against Jane Fisher, is to have me damned again, and he will.
If this had ever been a genuine enquiry then I would have been asked if I still had a complaint and who it was against, and also Jane Fisher’s misconduct would have been included in the enquiry and investigated.

She should have been suspended, and at least made to apologize.
As it is, she has got off scott free and I am suffering illness as I wait to be damned.
I bet she is delighted.
I always felt that she would not let me go after having me ruined and condemned again in Sussex, which is why I went on the run and changed my name, and yet the diocese were allowed to use the police who they brutalized me with to trace me and re-launch their harm of me.

So I am waiting to be damned for Fisher and the Bishop, and no matter who I contact and beg for help, I am ignored or treated as mad and bad.
Nothing has changed there, it is exactly as it was when Jane Fisher was ruining me on the streets of Winchester and no matter who I begged for help, I was treated as mad and bad.

Written 02/10/13 on this blog:

I am not writing the blog today as I have too much else going on and I am battling depression and pain.

I am still under horrendous pressure due to it being approximately 9 days until the expected attack on my life by Dame Steel and the Diocese of Winchester.
I guess I live in terror that they will succesfully take my life and freedom from me, and basically I am powerless, helpless and knowing that it will be this way for the rest of my life, the diocese with their wealth and power, own the police, and I, labelled mad and bad, have no voice and no way of preventing the diocese from going on harming me for the rest of my life.

Introduction

Earlier last year, severely traumatized by the Diocese of Winchester’s tracing of me. I started a blog.
It was muddled and not a very good description of things and I was under too much stress and trauma to get it right.

The blog was publicized against my wishes and I had harrasment from a church of england vicar who calls himself an investigative journalist in order to satisfy his vouyeristic needs, and who publishes a blog about sexuality and decided he had every right to barge into the church of england matter and scapegoat me.

It just shows how low certain people can stoop, especially ordained people.

This blog will hopefully answer some people who have asked me to write about what has really happened, as the Korris report is horrendously inaccurate and damaging, and Dame Steel’s report, because she is conflicted, will be the same.

Following the example of the Jersey bloggers, who have faced arrest, imprisonment and other damage for speaking out and speaking the truth, I intend to keep this blog up, no matter what is done to me, basically I am already ruined beyond repair by the church of England and so it doesn’t matter, I do not expect them to stop harming me, and my side of things has been excluded from any enquiry, so I am going to give my side of things this way.

The police, the church and me, part 1.

The police, even those in Jersey who are supposedly SPELL trained, have no understanding of autism and no wish to understand it, it comes under ‘madness’ to them and they treat people with autism as such, their attitude to madness is singularly that it is a crime, to brutalize someone and not allow a complaint because ‘madness’ means that your bruises and pain are not real, they are all in your mind.

The first police brutalization was in Basingstoke, in the year before I went to Jersey, this was as a result of me making the Lihous go home after they spent a day with me in Dorset making my life an utter misery with their relentless boasting, I had no money at the time and was in debt and worried sick, trying to complete college, the Lihous did the usual, boasting incessantly about all the things their grandchildren in Jersey and Guernsey had, I was shamed, belittled and miserable and in the end shouted at them and told them to go home and stop boasting.

They did but when I went to apologize, George Lihou chased me up the road shouting and saying I made his wife ill, he did not tell his wife he did this, and I ran and ended up in a terrible state a mile away and unfortunately the police found me, decided I was mad, brutalized me and forcibly flung me in a cell, I was seen by a doctor who told them to release me as there was no mental illness – not true in the fact I was battling horribly with depression because Jill Lihou had had me put on a dangerous drug that she was supposed to guard and administer and yet claimed to me that it made her ill doing so.

When the police found me, I wasn’t doing anything criminal, just sitting in my car, depressed and despairing, I had been suffering the Lihous boasting and controlling and decision making for a year and was struggling through college with no money while every conversation with the Lihous was about what their family had, private schools, music lessons, dance lessons, holidays, etc, the Lihous refused offended when I asked them if we could talk less about what their family had while I was battling in poverty to get through college.

I was mentally ill in that the Lihous were making me ill, I was not delusional, hallucinating or schitzophrenic, but the police both treated me as if I was mad and beat and flung me about and locked me up for it.
It remains a baffle to me as to why the police are not aware that suicide is not a crime and distress is not a good reason to beat someone and throw them in a cell and then release them – the end result likely is that person, already distressed, now severely traumatized, is released to commit suicide.

Anyway, when I went to North Walls in October 2010, when Lou Scott-Joynt had accidentally phoned me instead of phoning my friend of mine who she intended to phone to get the Diocese’s side of things accross, the police treated me as mad then, and said ‘this has happened before, hasn’t it?’ leaving me baffled as they did not say what ‘this’ was, again, branding me as mentally ill and thus not valid.And the police refused to prevent the diocese from contact with or about me, and instead repeatedly met with them and the council, breaching confidences and the date protection act repeatedly.

Even though I had been released from Basingstoke police station at 2am suffering severe trauma from my beating for the crime of suspected insanity, with the doctor declaring me not mentally ill.
It is a funny pattern that the police never recognize the results of the assessment and release each time, and continue to treat me as mad just because they have beaten me and locked me in.

The police had moved my car, and it had almost no petrol in it for me to get home.

So, Basingstoke was the first church-related police beating and detention in 2007 or 2008.

The Lihous afterwards, George did not tell Jill he had shouted at me, chased me or blamed me for her mental illness, which she had been suffering for decades, which had in the past led to her hoping her children would die, but funnily enough I do not believe she was beaten and locked up for those incidences or any other, and she did do some unusual things in her illness, not least having me put on a drug that my body didn’t cope with, and telling the doctor she would administer it as she was a former nurse, and then telling me that looking after my drugs made her ill.

So, Jill had no idea Goerge had shouted and chased me when I came to apologize, and was deeply upset when I refused to stay with them every time she asked -they had gone from having me home every weekend to when it suited them, with no input from me and input from their family in Jersey instead, Reverend Phil Warren and Heather Warren, the daughter that Jill wished dead when she was younger.

So, when I finally went back to the Lihous, Jill asked why I cringed and tried to escape from George, and I told her, I thought she knew, he chased and shouted at me, she didn’t and it made her upset again, when George came home she confronted him, and he muttered ‘sorry’ and turned away, which was not enough to repair things, and I was always very uncomfortable with him after that, especially when Jill started crying in church because I was narrating the drama and then helping with sidesmans duties, I do not know why that made her cry but she was like that, always upset and very intense about things, and I fled church for fear of George going mad again.

The relationship with the Lihous was never healthy and never recovered. Nor did I, the injustice and Post-Traumatic Stress of the police beating hadn’t gone by the time I arrived in Jersey.
The record it gave me horrified me, because I hadn’t done anything wrong to be so brutally flung around, and I was left with massive bruises and shock, and I had to try and explain to my landlady and college why I was injured and shocked.

I also saw my doctor, who mentioned trauma but did nothing.

And the branding for being in despair over the Lihous affected my record all the way to Winchester in 2010, where the police disregarded my complaint as that of a ‘mad person’ even though I was assessed as free from mental illness, and this happened in Jersey as well and back in Winchester, basically vulnerable people who get to a point where they cannot cope, are treated with contempt by police because of their inability to cope, so I was and have been, left with the Church harming me, and no defence because the police consider their detentions of me to mean I am insane and not credible.
I wonder how many other vulnerable people suffer and die horribly this way and are branded ‘mentally ill’ if they commit suicide as the result of trauma or lack of protection from their tormentors.

And where are the Diocese in this? Using the Lihous against me, because the Diocese only heard one side, from the Dean-Warrens-Lihou-Montague collaberation to try and clear all the wrongdoers and brand me.

Funny how George Lihou sent me a snotty note about how I was to forgive, when I told the Lihous I was traumatized by what happened, and yet they have remained unforgiving their part in condemning me for what happened, one sided, my side unheard.

The other thing, I nearly missed out, the police do not understand conditions such as autism and trauma, and so when they put me in a tiny cage, after brutalizing me in front of my fellow homeless in Winchester in 2011, and untruthfully claiming I tried to bite one of them when I ducked my head as he continued to throw me around, I was frozen with terror, and instead of letting me calm down, the police dragged me by my jumper accross the police yard, choking me and exposing me.
If this is how they treat people who are considered to be ill, who are traumatized and claustrophobic, what hope is there?

I am autistic and touch sensetive, especially in my upper arms, each police brutality has involved brutally tight squeezing of my upper arm, leaving bruises, and for no reason, I am not violent, I was terrified each time, frozen in terror, and that is what they did to me as a result.
I get the feeling it is an almost enjoyable experience for the police to beat and brutalize defenceless people, each time they are smiling, laughing, talking about their personal lives.

In Winchester in 2011, the police apparently acted out of Jane Fisher’s ‘compassion’ after the public brutalization and locking me in a cage and dragging me by the scruff of the neck through the policeyard, and instead of locking me in the cell, left the door open and sat in the doorway, as if that was any less terrifying or as if what had already been done had not been done, I am scarred for life by that incident and will never recover.
The police kept me for 24 hours, jeering I was mad, talking outside the cell of a hospital to send me to, refusing, even when asked by my former counsellor, to get a female officer to see me, and an appropriate adult, they told my former counsellor that they ‘couldn’t change things to suit me’, even though they were obliged to make provision for me as a vulnerable adult, they did not.

I was released utterly traumatized, each time I am beaten and locked in for being distressed, the injury it has caused has left me very ill and unable to function and has left me scarred for life, the horror of the diocese being able to trace me as they have, through those same police, and release press reports and try and silence me, has left me living in terror and unable to live a full and normal life.
Why is the law one-sided on the side of those who have power, why are the Diocese allowed to harm me and I am not allowed to protest because the police branded me incorectly?

My psychological report.

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/for-limited-time-only-here-is-my.html#.U3jGltJdXJk