Imagination

Lets pretend we are the Archbishop’s office and the press actually ask that man what is going on with my blog posts and the ‘safeguarding investigation’.

This is the kind of statement you would get in reply:

The Archbishop is very concerned about the vulnerable individual involved 
(no he isn’t)

The Archbishop wants the individual to seek help
 (The Church’s actions have disrupted the help I was receiving).

The Church have been bombarded with email contact from the individual 
(This is because they have destroyed her for 14 months without once relating to her as a human being, forced into her life and publicly floged her in the press and she can’t use a phone properly due to dysphasia).

The Church have offered the individual help (no, they made an illegal and forcible referral without her consent to an irrelevant charity who could offer her nothing and they did not take into account the help she was already receiving, which their actions were disrupting)

The Archbishop has concerns for the individual’s mental health 

(well so he should, considering the harm his church has done in the last 14 months, but if his ‘mentally ill’ daughter who he parades in the paper was publicly flogged  and discreditedfor her depression in an abuse investigation by an organization like the CofE, would he put up with it then?)

And so on, when will the CofE come to terms with the fact that their damaging press-speak does not match reality?!

This same man is having me destroyed

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/religion/9919405/Archbishop-of-Canterbury-offers-personal-apology-to-victim-over-abuse-claims.html

prejudice

Justin Welby showing off in a nothing campaign about preventing homophobic bullying in schools.

Justin Welby’s church is one of the most prejudiced, bigoted and narrow-minded organizations in the world.

They decided to brand me as seriously mentally ill for my distress and have got me a record for it and had me publicly flogged.

So why doesn’t he stop the self-glorification mission and look at what his own church are doing and do something effective about it?

He could always start with an anti-homophobic bullying campaign in his churches!

14 months of being publicly whipped

Because of the Bishop of Winchester’s foolhardy and harmful actions, which the Archbishop incomprehensibly condones, I have suffered 14 months of having my soul destroyed and having hatred directed at me by complete strangers.
The Archbishop praises the Bishop for this, apparently thus stating that publicly destroying an abuse survivor and subjecting her to public humiliation, hatred and smears, from people who have never met her is ok.

And, considering that the Diocese consider me to be ‘mentally ill’ don’t you think it is horrifying that they would allow this? And that the Archbishop would condone this public whipping of someone supposedly ill.

I am ill now, with the stress of 14 months of public destroyal.

I have asked the Archbishop, the Diocese, Safeguarding, the NAS, clergy abuse charities, anyone I could think of, to bring this to an end, but I have been ignored.

It is interesting that the police were prepared to brutalize me and choke me and fling me in a cell in 2011 for my distressed reaction to the diocese violating me, but here in 2014, as I continue as I did then to beg to be left alone, the police refuse to protect me, so my distressed reaction continues, leading to me being further brutalized and detained?

When is someone going to step in and end this?

Safeguarding investigation?

How can it be a Safeguarding investigation when:

• The Bishop causes maximum distress and damage by forcibly and illegally  tracing the autistic survivor through the police and leaving her feeling violated.
• An inaccurate report that omits the survivors views is published internationally, causing the survivor maximum distress and requests by the survivor to have that defamatory and incorrect report removed are ignored.
• The Survivor is subject to a public and media hate campaign by supporters of the wrongdoers, the Bishop does nothing, preferring to hide behind a PR company who make him look all the more silly and do nothing to help the conflict, in the meantime his safeguarding officer who in the past caused severe psychological injury to the survivor, is allowed to continue to illegally liase with the police about her. The survivor is left desparate and distressed, as in previous years, allowing the church to back up their ‘insane’ label of her that they have worked hard with police and mental health services to try and get her.
• The Bishop threatens the victim when she pleads for the violations of her life to stop and not re-start.
• The Bishop launches a conflicted investigation headed by a ‘volunteer’ who came forward because she is close to political and judiciary supporters of the wrongdoers.
• The Bishop re-instates the person suspended as a result of the report and says he ‘acted in good faith’ basically saying the investigation is over. He does not pass on the aimless and directionless forced ‘apology’ from the same person. He instead sends a message reading ‘no unsolicited intervention-confirmed’ to the victim.
• And a few months later, the Bishop’s safeguarding office, who has a formal complaint against her for repeated violations of the survivor’s rights and privacy, intervenes unsolicited by illegally and without consent, referring the survivor to the NSPCC, to a colleague of hers. Bearing in mind that the survivor is now 33 and despises the NSPCC, this is absolutely appalling. 
• The Bishop tries to personally force this referral on the survivor, ignoring the fact that he has been asked to only contact the survivor’s mediator, due to the damage inflicted by the Bishop so far.
• The survivor writes a legal letter to the Bishop, asking him to refrain.
• The Bishop releases a statement about having had legal representation to stop the conflicted report, and refers to the victim as ‘lost last and least’ and he prays she will accept the ‘support that his staff have been working hard across the diocese to provide’ ie his bullying safeguarding officer who has a formal compaint against her by the survivor has made an illegal referral to the NSPCC.
• The Survivor responds by a press release saying she is not interested in forced support from the Diocese who have destroyed her. The Diocese even at this stage are more interested in image and cover up than the victims’s circumstances and feelings and refused at any point to acknowledge the survivor’s own pastoral care and therapy situation, which their dreadful behaviour was disrupting.
• Deathly silence reigns, with the Bishop no longer threatening the victim.
• The Deanery and Diocese in the catastrophic investigation part company and the Deanery comes under the jurisdiction of  a Bishop who was seen to join in the abusive and damaging games in the churches in the deanery in years previous, and also the Archbishop.
• The Archbishop causes distress to the survivor by doing an aimless interview in which he seems to have no understanding of the circumstances and praises and condones both the wrongdoer and the Bishop who has done so much damage.
• The Survivor responds, and is ignored, as usual, disregarded by the Church as mad and bad, much as Jesus was by the Pharisees.
• The survivor is by now, 14 months after this sick and twisted charade started, quite unwell and waiting every day to be further damaged.

Simple comment for the Archbishop

If you praise the wrongdoers in an investigation, then the investigation is not valid and you are condoning their behaviour.
Thus you have invalidated an investigation which seemed to have the only aim of publicly, physically and permenantly injuring me.

A prayer from the Heart

Dear Lord and Father,

I am sorry for my sins, especially those that cause the Church of England to continue to destroy me even though I go to confession and do not dwell on the past as the Church of England do.

I ask to be released from living in fear and under oppression from the Church of England and their reports and interviews and press releases, I pray that You will open their eyes to the needless damage they are doing before it is too late, I ask to live the remainder of my life in peace, freed from the Church of England and their powerful destruction of me and my life, I pray earnestly in Jesus’ Name that Archbishop Wonga will listen to my pleas and act, not to further destroy me, but to withdraw his Church from harming me.

Lord, please help Archbishop Wonga to understand that he shouldn’t encourage wrongdoing by praising wrongdoers in radio interviews, and that if he praises wrongdoers, his investigation is even less valid than before and is causing needless harm to me for no reason and he is validating the wrongdoers to do the same again, so Tim Dakin will be free to destroy and threaten other abuse survivors.
I pray that the people in the Church of England who have run this one-sided campaign against me, with reports and interviews that omit me, are called to account and come to understand that they are doing wrong.

Lord and Father, I ask that from today on, and in Jesus’ Name, I am protected from the Church of England and any further attempts by them are exposed and they are called to account.
I pray protection and safety eternally for me, from the Church of England and their associates, employees, volunteers. In Jesus’ Name, amen.

I pray that all the nasty slanderous and abusive bystanders who have condemned me on merit of what they have ‘heard’ from the Korris rubbish and the hate campaign led by Philip Bailhache, Gavin Ashenden and others, repent and see how wrong it is to condemn what you don’t understand and when you don’t see the full picture.

Thank You God for my life here, it is indeed better than the life I had in Jersey and before, although the wounds I carry are great and life limiting now, I pray in Jesus’ Name that I am released from the bondage of the Church of England and left here to live the remainder of my life in peace and quietness, as, if the Church of England were not wounding me, all I would be doing would be enjoying this peaceful and balanced life that I have built.
I pray for protection from the Church of England and for them to cease their terrible twisted charade and see the error of their ways.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

I wonder how they would like it?

I wonder how the Bishop, Archbishop or any of their staff would like it if someone or an organization burst into their lives, defaming and threatening them, and then without their consent tried to refer them for ‘help’?

They wouldn’t like or agree with it, but they are powerful people in a powerful Godless organization, and they would deal with it legally, whereas I am a destroyed vulnerable person who has been defenceless against this rape-like forcing and violation of my human rights.

Trying to explain to wealthy and powerful old men in the church of england the damage they are doing is really hard, because they have no idea and basically don’t care, what things are like from the point of view of a poor and vulnerable person such as myself or Jesus.

Formal legal letter to the Archbishop of Canterbury

Formal legal letter to the Archbishop and all his subordinates in the Church of England:

Dear Archbishop Justin Welby and all staff and Employees of Archbishop Justin Welby, including Bishop Trevor Willmott and all Bishops, Diocesan and Church of England employees,

Dear Archbishop Welby, 

This is a formal legal letter regarding the continued harm being inflicted on me by the Church of England.

This letter is to warn you that due to the continued and seemingly endless damage by the Church of England to me, I am looking at legal action and will again ask the police to intervene if you do not stop injuring me through interviews, press releases and unbalanced and biased reports into my case, all of which omit my side of things.

I have suffered at the hands of the Church of England for a number of years, and I continue to suffer as inane and aimless press releases that only seem to pretend that wrongdoers are alright, continue to be released.

Archbishop Welby, you appear to be unaware or uncaring of the harm that you and your Church are inflicting on me, and there is no excuse for it whatsoever. If you can continue to claim that this awful inexcusable mess is anything to do with me, then you need to also start listening to me, hearing my concerns and respecting my privacy by withdrawing this awful unholy mess and no longer humiliating and harming me by using my name in vain in all this. This is Your mess, not mine, and you are injuring me and compromising the rebuild of my life.

Throughout this matter I have been treated with complete contempt by yourself and the diocese of Winchester and threatened by Bishop Dakin for my pleas for this charade to stop and for the Diocese to be left alone.

And the horrifying thing is, there has been not an atom of integrity in your/the Diocese’s actions. 

When pleaded with to leave me alone, after threatening me, the Bishop eventually sent a message saying ‘No unsolicited intervention, confirmed’ on the same day he reinstated the Dean, he neither told me he was reinstating the Dean and claiming the Dean had acted in good faith, nor did he pass on the Dean’s ‘apology’, which was even less of an apology than yours was.

And within Months Jane Fisher, the Diocesan Safeguarding officer who played a great part in destroying me and subsequently covered up her behaviour to the Bishop and in the inaccurate and unbalanced Korris report, which remains injuring me daily as, despite it’s inaccuracies and my complaints, it is still published internationally on the internet as if it was anything other than a misleading and damaging waste of paper and money.

For 14 months solid I have been severely injured by the Church of Engloand, on top of the previous damage done, and it has cost me my college courses, volunteer work, friendships, community activities, and most of all, it is profoundly and severely affecting my health, the reality is, if this onslaught by your Church in pretence of safeguarding does not stop and I cannot be assured of safety from you and your church, I am extremely likely to either end up dependent on a wheelchair or more likely to be dead within the next year.

If you Love God, then you really must repent of these deceptions in the press that are about placating people and covering up what has happened, it is unseemly (or maybe not) for an Archbishop to act in this manner, and your show of caring for and apologizing to, abuse victims, is just that, a show, and it can be seen through by victims and by people who are not sheeple, ie do not blindly follow and believe the Church of England, myself and the Chichester Survivors included, and you have let them and me down in a way that is terribly wounding to Jesus, and you will have to face Him in Judgement and explain why you have done these deceitful and wounding things while pretending to care for the sake of a media audience.

You have always ignored my correspondence and your staff have treated me as insane when I have made contact to ask for this damage to stop. So please cease to use my name in vain in the media, indeed cease to mention me at all as each time you do, you cause me traumatic shock.

Please withdraw the Korris report from circulation as it is inaccurate and does not in any way describe me or the circumstances and omits both my and the churchwarden in question’s account of things and has seriously psychologically injured me as it inaccurately describes me and undoubtedly deliberately, manages to omit Jane Fisher’s misconduct while making out that she helped me, she did not, she destroyed me. There was and is no reason to internationally defame and humiliate me through the Korris report, and it does not accurately reflect me or what happened and has been used against me by total strangers, who have condemned me and left me wishing I was dead. How do you tell anonymous strangers who are attacking and verbally abusing you that what they are reading is utter rubbish created by a hateful church safeguarding officer to cover her own back, through an unqualified counsellor and should never have been published in the first place

It would also undoubtedly be Jane Fisher who has ensured that I have not been properly interviewed by the Church of England in the time since Bishop Dakin destroyed my life in 2013 by illegally having me traced by the police.

Please do not publish any further biased and inaccurate reports that omit my side of things, especially not the Steel report, which was done by a conflicted member of the Dean’s support team and has been done against me to absolve the Dean and will be the last straw for my damaged and failing health if it is published.

You are to desist from further harm from me, otherwise you will be guilty of constructive murder, and even in my death, you will not be absolved, not by God and not by people who are following my story on the blogs, and hopefully not by the police, as no matter who holds what power in the Church of England, the damage being done to me and which has been done by the Church of England is a criminal offence, whether or not it is ever recorded as such.

Some of the criminal offences against me by the Church of England just relating the past 14 months include: harassment, defamation, libel, the unnecessary and cruel threats by Tim Dakin after he forced me into the matter by having the police trace me, the illegal tracing of me through the police, distress and damage to my health by the inaccurate and damaging reports against me and the smear campaign against me by the Jersey Deanery, the illegal attempt to refer me to the NSPCC by Jane Fisher, the attempt to force that illegal referral on me, the untruthful report by Tim Dakin claiming that his diocese had been working hard to get help for me, when the reality is that John Cameron of the NSPCC was a colleague of Jane Fisher, Jane Fisher who has inflicted severe and relentless damage on me, not least by her repeated illegal referrals and defamation of me from my time in Jersey to my homeless in Winchester and beyond.

At very least, when you do press releases and interviews, you need to start knowing the full picture, your interview on BBC Jersey was dreadful as you obviously didn’t know or care about the situation that you were being interviewed about.

You are to bring this ongoing charade regarding Jersey to a close without harming me further and the Church of England are to officially, finally and without exception, to leave me and my life alone.

This is a warning, a legal letter of intent to seek action against the Church of England if they do not stop needlessly inflicting harm and suffering on me.

sincerely,

HG – Jersey abuse survivor

Statement about the Archbishop’s interview

I am writing in response to the Archbishop’s statement on BBC Jersey.

I have to say, and it is the opinion of others too. That the Archbishop didn’t seem to have a point to his interview, and thus I wonder why he agreed to an interview.

The closest that myself and others could come to a point in his interview was that he appeared to be trying to say everyone in the matter is just fine.

How very confusing. I would disagree with him.

He praises and upholds Bishop Dakin, who launched the public attack on the Jersey Deanery with the Korris report, an inaccurate and inadequate report into the matters that occurred around the churchwarden abusing me, and he thus caused the reaction of anger and rebellion in the Jersey Deanery, which was completely avoidable and at the same time caused me severe harm on top of the damage already done.

If I was Archbishop Welby, I wouldn’t be saying that Tim Dakin was great and did well.

Because all that Bishop Dakin has achieved is injury, division and needless harm, thus I have to disagree with Archbishop Welby, who appears to only be taking part in an interview to placate all, and wandering from the reality of the matter, of which he seems to have minimal understanding.

The Archbishop states his faith in the Dean of Jersey, but equally claims to stand by his apology to me.

My mind boggles as I try to comprehend this.

So, he he believes in the Dean? And he still apologizes to me for the handling of my complaint?

I can’t really comprehend this. I wonder if anyone else can unravel what he means by this?

Bearing in mind that he was speaking on BBC Jersey and obviously doesn’t want to rock the boat again, and also that he hasn’t actually personally apologized to me or even read my correspondence, he simply issued a vague apology in the press at the same time as that inaccurate Korris report, that damaged me horribly, was issued; Neither the Bishop nor the Archbishop have at any point arranged to meet me and apologize in person or get my side of the Story. And thus, all reports since are unbalanced.

Despite correspondence sent to him, the Archbishop seems completely unaware of my story and of the fact that I have been and am suffering very badly as a result of this ongoing matter, which is affecting my life and health profoundly and leaving me in constant fear of further damage.

The Archbishop claims that he ‘has to make sure I am receiving pastoral care’ Is he really not aware after all the harm done to me by this badly handled issue and the record that I have as a result of the Church of England, that ‘pastoral care’ from the Church of England is not welcome, and that I only feel violated by the interventions by the Church of England, which so far in the past year has only been offered in the form of an illegal referral to the NSPCC by Diocesan Safeguarding officer Jane Fisher, who has severely damaged me and who did not have my permission to refer me to anywhere, especially not as I had a formal complaint against her at the time, which continues to be blankly ignored by the Church of England.

My pastoral care is in my own hands, and the repeated forced interventions by the Church of England are a violation akin to rape, and my response to these forced violations is the anger for which they have previously had me detained and brutalized by the police.

The referral to the NSPCC was ridiculous, firstly due to the fact that I am no longer a child and do not have care of a child, as well as the fact that the referral was made without my consent and the Diocese knew my feelings about Jane Fisher from my re-iterated complaint against her last year, and the fact was that not only was the referral done without my consent, it was attempted by the Bishop to force this ‘help’ on me, and this caused massive distress, this was at the point where I wrote my legal letter to the Bishop -which can easily be found on my blog.

Those who don’t know, the Bishop made veiled threat of further action against me when I cried to him in distress and horror when he had me forcibly traced and violated by police in March 2013, when the very reason I responded was because HE HAD HAD ME TRACED, WRONGLY AND SHOCKINGLY THROUGH THE POLICE, only to ignore my questions why and my distress, and I was afraid of a repeat of the continued violations of my private life and illegal interventions and referrals and violations by Jane Fisher and Bishop Scott-Joynt in Jersey and Winchester in 2008-2011 that led to them repeatedly having me brutalized by police and locked up for my response. Jane Fisher and Bishop Scott-Joynt treated my rights and privacy as a joke and prevented me from ever getting help or being able to trust, they destroyed my friendships, social life, career, community work, hope and future, and that remains the case.

The attempts by the Church to force help on me alongside making a massive public disaster about the historic abuse complaint and then attempting to put it all right in an even more damaging way, is not remotely Christian, and Tim Dakin’s dreadful ‘lost last and least statement’ where he claimed that his staff had ‘been working hard’ to get me help, when the reality was that they had tried to force me to be in contact with a colleague of Jane Fisher’s from the NSPCC is dire and very unchristian.

So I am not sure why the Archbishop is praising Bishop Dakin, especially as he has damaged lives, especially mine, for no reason, wasted hundreds of thousands of pounds, and continues to leave me in fear that my newly rebuilt life will be destroyed again by this matter.

The reality is that this matter has been handled terribly on all sides and maximum harm has been done to me as a result, whereas in my life, I had made my confession to God for my sins of anger and distress as my Post-Traumatic-Stress went out of control in Jersey and was made increasingly worse by Jane Fisher’s actions, I had left this matter in the past, and the way it has been publicly dragged up and I have been publicly flogged for it is horrific, the Church of England demonstrating that in 2000 years they have not changed from the crowd that called for Jesus’ public flogging and crucifiction as they are doing the same to me.

I gather that either the Archbishop was ill-prepared for his interview on BBC Jersey and had little understanding of the matter, or he was badly briefed. He certainly demonstrated that despite me writing to him, he has not read my letter and has no understanding of my circumstances. But it is absolutely baffling how he can be on BBC Jersey praising people who have made such a mess, the gulf between the reality of the situation and the Archbishop’s words are horrendous as I live each day expecting the CofE’s unbalanced reports and damage limitation press releases to harm me further.

HG

Personal message to the Archbishop of Canterbury:

What I would ask of the Archbishop, if he cares in the slightest and is not just speaking empty words from a brief put together by others, is:

Firstly, please read my side of things, and do not violate my life and privacy further by dragging this matter up in the media, you make me ill when you do this, please do not publicly praise people who have done wrong, it makes me ill, please do not insinuate that my pastoral care is remotely to do with your Church who have destroyed me and left me destroyed, especially as you and your church ignore my correspondence and have not dealt with Jane Fisher’s wrongdoing and continued violation of my rights and privacy by her continued illegal interventions which started in Jersey and continued even until last year.

Please stop this childish charade and close the matter down with no further harm to my life and reputation, you are making my life and relationships very hard and disrupting my therapy, you have done throughout this matter and appear to have complete disregard for my life and feelings as a human being.

And please remember, you have not yet produced a report or carried out an investigation which represents my full story accurately, and yet you have allowed investigations which interview supporters of the Dean who have never met me.

Please do not underestimate the toll that this is taking on my physical health, if this matter kills me, you will not be able to credibly talk about pastoral care and my welfare, nor will your ‘apology’ be of any worth, be aware that I have asthma and high blood pressure and heart problems that have been frequently triggered by this terrible matter and it does put me at risk from death.

If you consider yourself a Christian, then be aware that what you and your Church are doing in being less than honest about what is and has gone on and if you continue to harm me with forced ‘help’ or media releases, you cannot continue to call yourselves Christians any longer. Remember Jesus’ reaction to the people about to stone a woman for adultery? The way I have been publicly flogged and branded by the Church of England is as bad as that attempted stoning, and Jesus sin’t standing there condoning what you are doing to me, so when is this matter to be concluded and the public flogging of me to stop? Do you or any of you think you will stand before God after this dreadful mess and the cover-ups and ‘smoothing down’ of this dreadful mess?

What is so terrible about me, for sins past and repented that is worse than what my abusers and their supporters have done, that they are not publicly flogged and I am?

HG