against the grain

Just going against the grain here -why has the Bishop not publicly apologized to the Dean and recompensed him then?

Reality is that the Bishop’s insane public attack on me and the Dean has led to a situation where the Bishop has little choice, destroy me or continue to be battered by the Dean’s powerful supporters,
and I guess it is much easier to leave me shattered with my life in ruins again, defamed and destroyed, than for the Bishop to be honest and responsible.

Essential reading continued 4 -letters to the Bishop/longer descriptions of CofE

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/dear-bishop-tim-i-have-already-made.html#.U3sx_tJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/dear-bishop-tim-you-are-responsible.html#.U3syuNJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/good-morning-i-guess-i-had-better-make.html#.U3szHNJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/the-first-part-of-my-report-on-jersey.html#.U3sz2tJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/reflections-church-of-england-attitude.html#.U3s0A9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/two-sides-of-church-of-england-panic.html#.U3s0PtJdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/lack-of-formal-complaint-deans.html#.U3s0ftJdXJk

For those who don’t know, Dame Steel was supposed to complete her report in November and told Bob Hill her report was nearly completed and thus his and my views were not relevant at that stage, the Bishop then claimed the report was not to be published due to legal action, and now the claim is that the report has only just been finished, and that it is to be published, the so-called legal action is not mentioned, and it is obvious from Bishop Dakin, that the report is indeed against me, and he intends to damn me by publishing it, and refuses to engage with the fact that the report was hijacked and conflicted and my side has been omitted, and that there was illegal accessing of inaccurate police records from a force conflicted by their overseers being in church and government positions.

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/following-dame-heathers-damning-one.html#.U3s0n9JdXJk

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/this-is-as-ever-not-suicide-note-but.html#.U3s2q9JdXJk

W-h-o’s W-h-o in Jersey and Winchester 2 Bishops Dakin and Willmott

Bishop Tim Dakin: 

The man who has a lawyer as a chaplain, just in case, and so that abuse victims that the Bishop harasses can be dispatched without problem and the Bishop faces no consequnces.
Yes, Gavin Foster is a trained barrister. So basically anyone vulnerable harmed by the Bishop and Diocese have no redress.

Bishop Tim Dakin was announced by Downing Street on a stormy morning a few years ago, and by shocking coincidence, I was sheltering in the conservatory of people who knew him. I was not a happy person to hear about the Diocese at the time, seeing as I was homeless thanks to them.

In March last year, the Bishop had me illegally traced by the same police who destroyed me, and left me shocked and in collapse, this is typical of the Diocese of Winchester, they have no knowledge or understanding of the harm they do. At least I hope it is naivety that has allowed their continued damage and not simply stone cold cruelty.

Anyway, after having me illegally traced through the same police who harmed me terribly and refused my complaint against them, the diocese of Winchester had nothing to say to me, after taking away my new identity that had allowed me some escape from the terrible inaccurate and one-sided records they had given me, the diocese and police had nothing to say.

I discovered the Dean’s suspension by chance as I was getting a lot of emails from Jersey and other places. I did not want to read emails and be dragged back into the past.
I was contacted by MACSAS, the useless abuse charity who had let me down and violated me alongside the Diocese, and they claimed that ‘the Bishop wanted to help me and put things right’ which was untrue, and I asked MACSAS if they knew what brown-nosing meant.

MACSAS never at any point had my permission to be involved with the diocese or as they were in London with my family and the local authorities, ensuring that the diocese could access me to defame me further in the Korris report.
Funny how so far, no one has respected my human rights and the legal side of privacy even though I am competent.

Anyway, I found out about the Korris rubbish (report) and it nearly killed me because it was a graphic and harmful misrepresentation of the Jersey situation, published online and circulated so that complete strangers were villifying me, meanwhile, in Jersey, a full scale campaign kicked off with me being villified, publicly wrongly accused in the press and media and the Dean being upheld by his political colleagues in the the States of Jersey where he sits.
This utterly crushed me.

After a few weeks, the Bishop still had nothing to say, and his ‘barrister-in-charge’ waffled aimlessly and claimed I wasn’t being harmed by the smear campaign.
I could hear Jane Fisher in his words, she is the one who states untruths as facts.

The matter raged on, and for months, out on the streets, I lay curled up in misery, with every slur against me raging through my head and no defence, I tried and tried to write my story but Jersey was blanked through trauma, and Bob Hill, now acting as my mediator, only brought bad news every day until I was too traumatized to speak to him, he also did not get my side of things but relied on Korris, which hurt me all the more.

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/

I phoned Wolvsley to beg them not to keep this up, to refrain from the repeat violations of my life that occured in Winchester.
The Bishop of Winchester then decided he would speak, threatening me with court orders that I knew nothing about.
Showing clearly that justice and righting wrongs could not possibly be the aim of the matter.
You don’t launch such an investigation while stating that unjust and one-sided action that the victim does not understand is acceptable.
I told him so, but realised that Jane Fisher would be the one telling him what to say.

The horrendous charade proceeded, with a conflicted judge ‘volunteering’ to step in, Dame Heather Steel, and thus the Deanery rejoiced, my side was never to be taken, recorded or known, basically I was defamed and destroyed for 14 months for no reason, and the Bishop has never been able to communicate with or through my mediator effectively or take any notice of the harm he has been doing, or include me in the investigation.
Bob’s blog has in-depth coverage of the mess that Bishop Dakin has made and the damage it has done.
I have repeatedly asked a number of people connected to the matter, and the police, to bring an end to it and to prevent further harm, defamation and damage to me. As yet, I have been ignored, treated as mad by the police as I was in Winchester.
Obviously they consider ‘mad’ people, deserving of harassment and abuse.

Bishop Trevor Willmott:

A conflicted Bishop, the former Bishop of Basingstoke. Now Bishop of Dover.

A close friend of JM who was deeply involved in this matter, his feelings for her and belief of her side of things would mean that he could not be neutral. 
JM used to say he fancied her and recounted him hurrying after her to say goodnight in the car park after a meeting.

His other conflict was that he was more than willing to join in cult games in the Jersey churches, saying what he was told to, for example ‘I sense that there are people here tonight who are feeling fear, would they like to come up and be prayed for?’ etc.
Manipulation which was prevelant in the unhealthy side of Jersey churches, American-influenced cult-church stuff, that is and was damaging.


When the Channel Islands split from the Diocese of Winchester, Bishop Trevor took over overseeing the Channel Islands, no doubt with lots of sympathy for them and none for me.
And so the charade continued.

Polo describes Bishop Trevor as Bob Key’s new Mammy.

Interestingly enough, off topic, some people in Jersey do say that the Dean is a female, ie, the wife is the Dean, and things the Dean said in church certainly backs that up.
Thats a bit sharp, but while I thought of it, I wrote it.

A short note to the Bishop

if you release the Bailhache report you will kill me, 

it is as simple as that, you wicked man.

It is sick of you to be spouting rubbish about trying to make the bailhache report less distressing, it will kill me,

you have spent 14 months on my constructive, slow, torturous murder,

and you pretend to care that the final blow will distress me?

What happened to Christianity, that my being branded for life by police and authorities wasn’t enough as it is with rapists, murderers, deliberate crooks and wife beaters, who do not usually get the privilage of a Bishop and Diocese spending six years branding them and driving them from sociaty and 14 months of publicly being flogged before being murdered by a report done agains them by their abusers’ supporters?

It took everylast atom of strength and belief in myself to rebuild my life and in your recent media attacks and your forthcoming murder of me, you have left me as I was when I was left destitute and in my pyjamas in 2010,

there was basically no point in rebuilding and so I will return to sleeping rough in the run up to your murder of me.

Basically, when I returned to Hampshire in my pyjamas and with no bra, after being thrown from my home in Jersey, I did not know that I could expect another year of public whipping from fisher and scott-joynt as well as police brutality and detentions and branding for life for standing up to them,

which you noticable did not make any sort of investigation into.

I know that even if I was to survive the bailhache report, which will kill me, and I wont survive it, 

I will not be free of you, just as Jane Fisher was not publicly satisfied with leaving me destitute in my pyjamas, the same again will not satisfy you, you will continue to destroy me after the Steel report.

So basically I will spend my last nights where I am happiest and least likely to be violently dragged from my home, beaten, robbed, locked in and jeered at and beaten.

I am now homeless again.

14 months of being publicly whipped

Because of the Bishop of Winchester’s foolhardy and harmful actions, which the Archbishop incomprehensibly condones, I have suffered 14 months of having my soul destroyed and having hatred directed at me by complete strangers.
The Archbishop praises the Bishop for this, apparently thus stating that publicly destroying an abuse survivor and subjecting her to public humiliation, hatred and smears, from people who have never met her is ok.

And, considering that the Diocese consider me to be ‘mentally ill’ don’t you think it is horrifying that they would allow this? And that the Archbishop would condone this public whipping of someone supposedly ill.

I am ill now, with the stress of 14 months of public destroyal.

I have asked the Archbishop, the Diocese, Safeguarding, the NAS, clergy abuse charities, anyone I could think of, to bring this to an end, but I have been ignored.

It is interesting that the police were prepared to brutalize me and choke me and fling me in a cell in 2011 for my distressed reaction to the diocese violating me, but here in 2014, as I continue as I did then to beg to be left alone, the police refuse to protect me, so my distressed reaction continues, leading to me being further brutalized and detained?

When is someone going to step in and end this?

Safeguarding investigation?

How can it be a Safeguarding investigation when:

• The Bishop causes maximum distress and damage by forcibly and illegally  tracing the autistic survivor through the police and leaving her feeling violated.
• An inaccurate report that omits the survivors views is published internationally, causing the survivor maximum distress and requests by the survivor to have that defamatory and incorrect report removed are ignored.
• The Survivor is subject to a public and media hate campaign by supporters of the wrongdoers, the Bishop does nothing, preferring to hide behind a PR company who make him look all the more silly and do nothing to help the conflict, in the meantime his safeguarding officer who in the past caused severe psychological injury to the survivor, is allowed to continue to illegally liase with the police about her. The survivor is left desparate and distressed, as in previous years, allowing the church to back up their ‘insane’ label of her that they have worked hard with police and mental health services to try and get her.
• The Bishop threatens the victim when she pleads for the violations of her life to stop and not re-start.
• The Bishop launches a conflicted investigation headed by a ‘volunteer’ who came forward because she is close to political and judiciary supporters of the wrongdoers.
• The Bishop re-instates the person suspended as a result of the report and says he ‘acted in good faith’ basically saying the investigation is over. He does not pass on the aimless and directionless forced ‘apology’ from the same person. He instead sends a message reading ‘no unsolicited intervention-confirmed’ to the victim.
• And a few months later, the Bishop’s safeguarding office, who has a formal complaint against her for repeated violations of the survivor’s rights and privacy, intervenes unsolicited by illegally and without consent, referring the survivor to the NSPCC, to a colleague of hers. Bearing in mind that the survivor is now 33 and despises the NSPCC, this is absolutely appalling. 
• The Bishop tries to personally force this referral on the survivor, ignoring the fact that he has been asked to only contact the survivor’s mediator, due to the damage inflicted by the Bishop so far.
• The survivor writes a legal letter to the Bishop, asking him to refrain.
• The Bishop releases a statement about having had legal representation to stop the conflicted report, and refers to the victim as ‘lost last and least’ and he prays she will accept the ‘support that his staff have been working hard across the diocese to provide’ ie his bullying safeguarding officer who has a formal compaint against her by the survivor has made an illegal referral to the NSPCC.
• The Survivor responds by a press release saying she is not interested in forced support from the Diocese who have destroyed her. The Diocese even at this stage are more interested in image and cover up than the victims’s circumstances and feelings and refused at any point to acknowledge the survivor’s own pastoral care and therapy situation, which their dreadful behaviour was disrupting.
• Deathly silence reigns, with the Bishop no longer threatening the victim.
• The Deanery and Diocese in the catastrophic investigation part company and the Deanery comes under the jurisdiction of  a Bishop who was seen to join in the abusive and damaging games in the churches in the deanery in years previous, and also the Archbishop.
• The Archbishop causes distress to the survivor by doing an aimless interview in which he seems to have no understanding of the circumstances and praises and condones both the wrongdoer and the Bishop who has done so much damage.
• The Survivor responds, and is ignored, as usual, disregarded by the Church as mad and bad, much as Jesus was by the Pharisees.
• The survivor is by now, 14 months after this sick and twisted charade started, quite unwell and waiting every day to be further damaged.

I wonder how they would like it?

I wonder how the Bishop, Archbishop or any of their staff would like it if someone or an organization burst into their lives, defaming and threatening them, and then without their consent tried to refer them for ‘help’?

They wouldn’t like or agree with it, but they are powerful people in a powerful Godless organization, and they would deal with it legally, whereas I am a destroyed vulnerable person who has been defenceless against this rape-like forcing and violation of my human rights.

Trying to explain to wealthy and powerful old men in the church of england the damage they are doing is really hard, because they have no idea and basically don’t care, what things are like from the point of view of a poor and vulnerable person such as myself or Jesus.

Could you all contact the Archbishop and appeal for this murderous charade to stop – to save my life.

An email to the Bishop of Winchester and The Archbishop of Canterbury:

Tim Dakin and Bob Key between them have wasted more than half a million and left an abuse survivor ruined.

Archbishop Welby thinks Bishop Dakin is great, and that Bob Key is someone to have faith in.

Archbishop stands by his ‘apology’ to me, even though he never apologized to me and is wrecking my already wrecked life and is doing and has done nothing to help me.

Church of England classic!

You, the Church of England, are killing me in a very slow and horrible way by causing repeated collapses.

You are a dreadful, deceitful and very very evil and unchristian organization, and your press releases are nothing to do with Christ, how can lies and cover-ups that are killing someone slowly and extremely horribly be Christian?

Today I had a collapse as a result of the rubbish spewed by Welby on BBC Jersey,

so why does he stand by an apology that never happened and why is my legacy to be a thousand despairing screams of help to people who’s vain waffle about caring does not match the reality of the harm that is being done to me?

Why does Welby stand by an apology he never gave and at the same time condone the man who did the harm? Makes sense? No, like the rest of this horrific mess and most of the CofE press releases ever.

The CofE needs a new press co-ordinator, they have not made sense throughout this awful murderous, sick and twisted charade.

In all seriousness, I am likely to die if this kind of stress continues to cause nervous collapses, tachycardia and high blood pressure.

I AM DOWN AND UNABLE TO KEEP GETTING UP, AND THIS PACK OF HUMAN HYENAS WHO CALL THEMSELVES CHRISTIANS WILL NOT STOP INFLICTING HARM ON ME WHILE I AM DOWN.

Just to add, it is very interesting to hear that it was the Bishop’s staff who pushed for the channel islands to be moved to Canterbury, for Bishop’s staff, read ‘Jane Fisher’.

HG

Answering a question -in brief

I was asked a question about the blog on Saturday.

The Question was – what do I hope to achieve through the blog.

This is a brief answer as I am only on the computer briefly this morning.

• I am telling my story through the blog, even though I remain too traumatized by Jersey to talk about it.
• I am sharing so that other survivors can be encouraged, and I am happy to say that quite a number of survivors have made contact and talked and shared links to websites and support groups, as well as sharing their experiences.
• I am sharing my day to day life on the other blog, which hopefully shows that I am not just the mad bad user etc that the church of england make me out to be.
• I am ensuring that a record of my experiences is made, even if I die as a result of the damage by the Church of England – those who don’t know, my health has suffered seriously as a result of this matter.
• It helps me to write and share my feelings and experiences, I am alone a lot, because I need to be because of my conditions, and I get very angry and distressed by what has happened.
• I would like to contribute towards educating people that the Great Grim Church is not all wonderful and Christian, because so many people do not really know or understand what the Church of England really is, or how they make the vulnerable and poor and disabled suffer. How they use them, even, and how the press releases, so carefully formulated, do not always reflect the true situation – even I was horrified by the dishonesty of Bishop Tim and Luther Pendragon, and the ‘lost last and least’ statement was horrifying.

tbc

Sheeple – Christian Country? 1

I bet the post headline got your attention.

I will be writing a post on the debate about Britain being a Christian Country, but not today.
I am completely exhausted and currently moving home, to somewhere where the diocese can wreck my life more easily.

Anyway, I think you know what I will write.

Christian Country? Noh! Can’t be, not while the Church of England are in power in Government, because they are divided between wealthy Pharisees, sheeple and old haughty ladies, so that is a large potion of the so-called ‘Christians’ removed, because they aren’t, they you have the same haughty old ladies, and a few men, lets not be sexist, in other denominations, they who is left? A larger population of Christians than atheists,agnostics and other religeions?
I doubt it.

But anyway, the Great Grim Church are in government, and they are mainly the pharisees of Matthew 23, rather than being Christian, I am talking about leaders here, Justin Welby loves the finance industry and you cannot serve God and Mammon, then there is Dakin and Ould and Scott-Joynt, would anyone call them Christian?
So, no, my sweeping and very brief conclusion as I move home and die of exhaustion is nah, the UK isn’t a Christian country, it is a country with a large population of Christians or people who identify themselves with the Christian Faith.

Shall I add a footnote about the appalling way the Church of England treat abuse survivors, the vulnerable and poor?
Shall I add about wealth being the qualification for Church of England acceptance, and how completely detached they are from the poor in their midst, while they tithe tons of money to other countries and feel that they are thus Christian, virtuous and righteous?
nah.

Can anyone tell that I am in a flip and dismissive mood? Mainly because moving house is half killing me! 🙂